Been listening to Holland by Glass Face (Inukshuk remix). Very beautiful vocals. The lyrics, too.
So it's exam month now. Most of the time I'm just camping in my room. Facebook and Whatsapp would be my window to the social world. Trips to Tesco for groceries give me the chance to brush up on my cooking skills. I'm finally handling chicken now! Granted, they're boneless, but hey, marinating them with spices and cooking them with caramelized onions are the best.
I finished my two papers last week, and now just waiting until the 19th for the next one, which makes me feel very chill right now. I get to study more, but, the long time interval just tempts me into procrastination right now, haha.
I also kind of forget how to socialize with people these days. I did hang out with my course mates after our second paper, and I did go out and eat with my friends twice, but, I miss making connections with friends. Social anxiety held me back, I guess. I'm a little tired of small talk with others. Too short.
With me lying on my bed most of the time, constant snacking on Oreos and Pocky, and the lack of exercise, I dunno how much weight I've gained. Ah, can't wait to go back home. Watching too much baking and cooking videos these days, very tempted to try out those recipes.
I've also finally finished watching the second season of How to Get Away with Murder. The series is just damn epic. They also used very good music for their background. Throughout these two seasons I am very much in love with IAMX's music like I Come with Knives, Happiness, Music People and Insomnia. Damn nice. Bastille was even featured in Naughty Boy's song, No One's Here to Sleep.
Can't wait to find a job. Wish I can work in a bakery. I don't mind being just a cashier, so long as I get to be amidst all the food, hahaha. Should work on my CV soon. If only I get to meet and collaborate with the people who came up with Pie Therapy, in which they counsel people through the process of baking pies. Food has always been my passion, along with the intricate, complex dynamics of human relationships.
I've...messed up a lot in the past. For these weeks of solitude I've reflected on them and learn from them. I still relapsed from time to time, but not as much anymore. Sometimes I feel like, maybe people are better off without me.
I shall study Counselling now. Biological Psychology is just too much for this past week. Gambate, everyone!
